I've been looking for this very factor that is within me but that i have yet to unlock it or to be more accurate, I've unlocked it before but i shut it down cause of my own emotions and now I'm having a hard time unlocking it again...
And that is, My Love for PLAYING HANDBALL.

Yes I do still enjoy playing.
but the thing is ,
I think I've lost this love for the game that allows me to just Get into the state of focus. Hard Focus and Concentration.

It may be because of how I'm always affected by scoldings and mistakes...
It may be because I keep on thinking that training is tiring when it isn't that bad at all.
Or it may be because I always feel that I have to do this I have to do that I must do this I must do that and pressurized myself more than necessary.
leading to my lousy performance.


No this is not the red man,(FYI,The red man is the inner voice that always makes people think negatively)
I'm just trying to look for the cause for my under performance.


I thought of The SHBCC games with TH
as i came across the emails of encouragements by the seniors.
Reading through them ,
reminds me of all their attitude on court,
reminds me of how they have given their all,
fearing nothing at all cause we , at that time, has got nothing to lose.

I want this feeling back.(IConcludeIt'sThatRootOfThePROBLEM)
I dont like reserves.
AND
I am going to try and get this feeling back
cause it's of utmost importance, second to the betterment of my keeping.

So, JIAYOUJIAYOUSUMIN!
(: I like the Green Man :)
-Alot-

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基础，我们还真的不够。

导致 当我们要把我们在台湾学的东西
和 教练教我们的一切 结合运用时

我们就陷入一阵混乱 不知所措。

基础，我们很缺。
但，
时间，我们更加缺乏。

虽然又再次输给了马来西亚JB队
但这场比赛告诉了我该加强什么。

每个事物必定有它的意义 。
这次我学到了

---时间紧迫。---

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每当我有些动摇时 都会去看看你们的部落格。
每次每次那些文章

都让我很欣赏你们 很羡慕你们

都给我很大的激励。

感谢。

我一定要争气啊！争气！争气！争气！
嗯！
;-D

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我渐渐觉得自己变得比较坚强。
虽然只是一点点 但我感觉得到。

就拿今天来说吧
我因为有些搞不清楚状况
就被原本就有点气的教练 骂。

她骂我 懂不懂规则的。
到的有没有打过手球。

以前的我 当下应该会满难过 会责骂自己太蠢 太笨。
但今天
我能把所有的训话听进去 并且只觉得一丁点难过。
真的只有一点点而已哦

庆幸自己有一点点进步。
庆幸自己渐渐学会少些自责多点用脑。

虽然在慢慢学会的过程中 并不好过
但学会后 更能控制自己。


明天就要和学姐教的队 对打。
有些紧张 有些担心 但也有点兴奋。

我希望 前几天的我 不再是现在的我
我希望 我不会辜负 教练和队友的期望（：

我相信 我明天不会表现得太差的（：

加油!加油！加油！ （：

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真的好讨厌这样的我
常常都会想自己做不到这个， 做不到那个。
不喜欢那么悲观的自己

而现在的我似乎常常心不在焉 不专心。
好讨厌好讨厌好讨厌啊！！！！！！！！！！！

我想进步。但却一直退步。
我真地想进步。真的。

对不起 队友们
我想我需要一些时间来调整自己
希望明年真的可以和你们一起比赛，
不管结果是什么。。。 我想和你们并肩作战。

在今年结束以前 ，

我一定会进步。

一定会拉回我以往的水准，

然后 进步。

请相信我。

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I don't like people going back on their words.

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Damn! so much to memorise and it doesn't seem to enter my brain fast enough.
Hai.
But i am going to take a gamble for O .
I will take with me 2 themes for ss and read through another theme.
For history i will take with me 3 well mem. chapters and part of stalin.
So... I'll really write fast fast in both humanities exam for SEQ
and then put my time in doing well for SBQ...
Must get at least like 16 or 17 for both of them
then SEQ see lucky ma
Lucky then 20marks for each paper secured.
if not i'll just have like maybe 30 marks secured for both hum. SEQ.

Wish everyone good luck for this week's exam.
I wish myself extremely good luck too :)
Hope I'll do well in chemistry, physics and combine humanitites.
(~Oh god please help me. ~~~~~)

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